*now tune 2 Luna Sea's LOVELESS*
...just realize something tonite...all my friendships with everyone are............dunno how 2 say........
it seems shallow ???...i just can't find someone who i can really tok heart 2 heart......last time used 2 be Andrew who i can really tok to n pour out my troubles...hopes...dreams...*sigh* now i find it hard 2 even to talk with him......tonite i wanted 2 have a good chat with him over coffee for Andrew just got his O level results n he wants to combine cert n go to Poly....then dunno y he brought Nick along....n i found it diff 2 even start a topic....so while they ate their dinner at BK i tok cork with them....then Nick kept insisting tat we all play CS....i said no cause i dun wan to play *really sick of playing it*...then Andrew said he wan 2 go up n look at headphones.....
no choice but 2 follow....then spend some time at the electronic supermart *God knows wat is the name* looking at games 1st....then dunno y...both of them started looking at Hi-fi sets...lastly at the pathetic display of headphones...*so little !!! my neighbourhood store sells even more man !!* arGH....then dunno y go into a computer shop n look at games....okkk....but when they started up another level n tat was pretty close to the LAN shop...my warning lights came on....this had to stop...so i asked them..where the heck are we going...then Nick started 2 pursuade me 2 play CS...n Andrew oso said:" yah go play lah..." .......tat was it........i didn't come all the way here just 2 play CS !!!...i was kind of pissed n told them firmly no...n i told them tat i rather go Mac for a drink....i just dun understand y all of them always wan 2 CS ?? i mean if u dun play 4 just one dae....your hands will rot ??? come on...have a life...there is more then just CS ! i guess in the future...i'm not calling Andrew out for coffee...rather be alone n stay at home...
haiz...i guess we are all grown up now....became more aware of one another...in short...we can't click anymore......
guess i am getting more n more isolated frm ppl......soon ppl won't know i'm there.........
........getting tired......continue this tommorrow....